Hujungnya..

Assalamualaikum... its been like 2 months now hidup ber-single.. what all i can say now... im oryte.. :) maybe bukan jodoh or wat so ever.. i dun want to wait lagi and hoping too much.. tho aku pernah sayang ia.. and masih mengharap ia kembali, tapi tidak lagi sekarang.. aku mahu terus berjalan.. pasal.. aku stresk sudah memikirkannya... mcm ngaleh saja ku memikir pasal ia if ia nda memikirkan sal aku..? true wat?? all i can say is now.. Terima Kasih and Sorry if aku nyakitkan hatimu balik2~ tidak pernah terlintas di fikiran utk menjadikan tali yang dulu kita ikat menjadi begini.. (deep eyh) hehehe~ well... thats the fact that i have to swallow now.. :)

Today... aku membuat keputusan... jgntah buat apa2 yg boleh menyakitkan diri sendiri.. aku mau jauh dari ia.. aku mau buat dinding sebesar tembok german supaya aku nda ingat ia... or apa2 saja yg boleh leads to ia... enuff saying of ia... HAHAHA!!!

aku jua yg bodoh sebnrnya memberikan hatiku 100% arhnya... sedangkan ia hanya membagi 50% kali.. pasal.. ndakan sampai ia menjadikan perkara ani cemani kan~ (bah masih jua pasal ia ani).... okay2~ aku mahu... nda jua mennunggu, nda jua mencari utk yg baharu.. :) biar lah jodoh menentukan segalanya.. kalau aku sama ia hanya bertahan 5 bulan saja.. manatau yg baharu ani... utk selama2nya~ hehe~ amin~ doakan aja~ :)

yatah akibatnya nie.. kalau hidup berada sentiasa di atas, bila ia d bawah, teruk berabis lah~ mcm hidupku skrg ani.. needs to be disusun semula.. hidupku berserabut lately... kerja yang harus diantar, alum beantar.. nasib jua kana bagi extension... pasal apa tu nah?? otak nda dpt berfikir dengan sempurna... bukan ku malas.. tapi nda dpt concentrate kan membuat sesuatu pekerjaan...

Tapi... yg ku appreciate bnr... My Family n frens~ dorang reli2 help me.. to pick me up when i was down... dorang bagi kata2 semangat secara langsung or nda... aku terima saja.. walau perit, namanya advice.. mesti jua ditelan... and.. now.. penerusan hidupku harus dilaksanakan~ Cita-cita ku harus ku usahakan... bila dah berjaya nanti... barutah dpt goyang kaki.. hehe~ :)

Mcm aku kehabisan apa kan diceritakan... :s haha~ so.. i see u guys next time ye~ tata~ Aslm...

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Missing You..

Each day is so slow and so hard because no matter how hard I try to reveal my heart you can't see it. I'm just resent the time that's gone by. No matter how much time changes, I'm always sad. One more time even though it hurts, I should have loved a little more. I'll laugh only for you, I'll cry only for you. One more time like the hot sun of the sky, I'll love all of you forever..only you. Though you never give a damn about me as much as you always did in the past, I'll never change. And I just want to say:

" I Miss You"

Jai Ho - PCD Dance

Adakan dihafalkan.. pi so far.. aku hafal dah... :) Lawakan the dance moves~ :) I will perform it tonyte.. at my nini Alai's surprise bfday party.. :) Last nyte.. Super Fun! aku mamam d ahan thai ah.. bah2~ adang menyeleweng zek.. tuh bukumu melagau ah~ nya.. nda g ku kana pegang.. :p Wish me Luck for my dance tonyte, my teaching tomorrow and my exam next week.. :p gila eyh~ tight schedule.. Fighting!!! :)

M - miss ya! :)

- 145&18-

Menyeleweng..

Seriously.. i need to Focus!!!! mcm dari start revision week, sikit saj abaru ku belajar.. mcm 1% lah cematu.. Gila?!!! i noe ryte!!!

So, kemarin, aku kan post, p aku lupa and tired berabis.. Bah, kan becerita tah ku nie.. Kemarin morning i sent M to Padang kebajikan sebab ia malas skulah awal :p(tapikan, ia skulah kul 7.30, aku ngantar 8.30.. alat sejam ganya :p) haha!! So, aku hantar ia, then balik rumah, konon kan buat revision, p mcm menjwb soalan quiz d FB plg ku.. (menyeleweng agen) then around 11ish, aku ke hospital, membawa Adikku Aan ada appointment d Ortho specialist RIPAS lah.. sampai jua kul 12 lalu, tekana traffic jamm jua ku.. Then balik rumah, nda batah balik, ke UBD g ku.. ad briefing pasal my Teaching Assistanceship (From 18th May 2009 sampai 16th June 2009) kira sebulan lah... ill be posted to Sekolah Rendah PPS Di Raja Sahibul Bandar Gadong with Hilmi sepet.. so yeah~ gud luck to all of us!! hehe.. Then balik rumah, kan revised lagi, p mcm menyeleweng lagi stalking org d Blog2 and mlm, aku belatih menari.. Seriously!! Payah tarian Jai Ho ah~ mcm lam Vcnya, sanang.. -_-".. sampai aherlah kami belatih..

Hari ani.. hmm.. letme see.. i went to the TelBru thingy this morning with my brother and kononya kan mendptkan hadiah Free Espeed Rental for a year.. akhirna hanya dpt goodie bag.. -_-" mcm.. pakal saja ada makanan and makanannya nyaman, lau nda.. bek plg tdur.. :) then balik rumah..

Hahahaha!!! atuhlah cetanya for today.. yet lah.. mcm later mlm, we have dinner Ahan Thai Jubilee, kana pgl oleh my Nini.. :) then latenya lagi ada dance practice lagi.. and actually now, i wanted to do my Teaching stuff for this Sunday.. p kan.. menyeleweng lagi.. :p bah kan buat tah ku nie~ so that krg aku kan ke Yayasan ofice, memprint n segala lah~ :) hehe..

Chao Chin Chao!!! Salamat Po!!! :)

So Cute!!! lau ada bnr2 ku jumpa, ku gigit ya berabis!!!!!

Message:

M - Saranghaeyo!!!

Poop - Adang menyeleweng.. and aku ambil title mu as my title of this post.. sal aku menyeleweng jua..

Hill - REVISE TAH!!!!

Zur - Relax ko revise ah.. jaga kesihtan atuh, parut ah.. Jaga... ochey??

Gwan - jgn ko stress ah~ sabar.. Fighting!

B - Go Gagas!!!

Ser - Happy nie... ata main???

Hong - -_-

Ain - Get well soon..

Emi - U Go Gurl!!!

Semua - Kamsahamida... :p

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Lately..

Hey peeps.. wah~ lama bnr dah ku nda update ah.. banyak perkara happened to me.. apa2 saja ah~ lemme ingatkan..

1. My Kazen;s wedding.. (atuh sudah kali ah)
2. I went to Korea for holiday.. (go to my fb for pixes)
3. i had a lot of family functions going on.. and therell be 2 more fnctions coming.
4. EXAMS!!!! .... is coming.. Owh God~ Help me wif this..
5. I Love U.. ahahaha!!!! yeah.. U.. :p

Im happy.. too happy lately.. tapinya kdg2 membari takut jua happy2 saja ani.. karang.. sedihnya.. Nauzubillah~ fighting! kan exam.. wish me luck for my exam people.. and plz pray for my success... AMIN!!! :) wat else yeah... im bored now actually.. dats y im updating my blog.. aku mau tukar theme ku jadi.. mcm.. This blog is dedicated to my life... my feelings.. and so on.. Well basically about myself lah.. lambat~ ;p

Today.. i woke up early as i promised to my Vietnamese frens.. (dari kemarin dah dorang dtg brunei, so aku bawa jalan2 lah, kesian ku, ndakan dorrang kemari, tani nda menjemput and bawa jalan2 kan???) So d mlm aku bawa ke tempat2 yg dpt bawa dorang lah.. eg. Masjid (dari luar), Jerudong Park, Mall gdg, Kpg Ayer, Empire, etc lah~ hen tadi pagi aku bawa dorang jalan2 pakai boat d Kpg ayer, then jalan2 masuk masjid, then makan ambuyat.. hehe.. overall dorang happy lah wif my hospitality.. alhamdulillah.. hehe~

After that, jln2 wif M, ke ubd, buat course evaluation and jumpa Hill, Zur, Poop n Ravie d UBD.. then antar M balik, then balik rumah.. then tetdur.. hahaha!!! then sampai sekarang.. online aje~ ;p..

Atuh saja for today.. feeling: Happy.. :)

Adios~
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